I’m very much a passion-driven person. So, when my passion for things I usually love is dulled by things out of my control, and things just feel… HARDER to do every day, and you don’t realize what the culprit is, it’s like you’re stuck in a grey cloud of muck, and can’t get clarity.
I’ve been living in a pain cloud for a really long time. I’ve actually been successful at using my pain as a tool to help me overcome challenges and even help fuel me to reach big goals!! (Positive self-talk is a very powerful thing!) I have always been led (by medical professionals) to believe my pain was soft tissue based, so I sucked it up and just did everything I thought I could do to help it. Nothing ever really did, honestly- but I continued to try.
This year, my pain escalated and it was really getting to be too much for me to handle on the daily. So I finally saw a doctor about it (…again). This time was different though: the source was finally revealed. I found out I have a condition called congenital hip dysplasia. I also learned I was born with this (that’s the “congenital” part). It’s when your hip sockets aren’t deep enough to cover your bones. Theres more to it than that (obviously) but that’s the gist of it.
There’s all kinds of bad results from having this condition and living your entire life untreated. You’re walking around with misaligned hip bones, there’s cartilage deterioration, arthritis, bone spurs, and then the constant pain. 25 years and never knew it was bone-based. (Just six weeks ago I was at the gym stretching my painful hips out on the foam roller! 😱 ) My medical care givers always attributed my hip and knee pain to other conditions. But I always knew it was something else. I just never knew I’d ever actually learn the ANSWER to the mystery! Anyway, TA-DA! Mystery solved!
It’s incredible and shocking, but fixing the condition requires total hip replacement. I’m having my first one in four weeks. I am so excited to start on my road to less pain! Bring it on. I’m ready for the challenge.